Heh, title explains all. Yeah I'm pretty depressed right now. You know how things are. It wouldn't be surprsing I guess. I would really just love to complain right now. I've worked a total of 30 hours this week...4 days in a row..and then some. But I guess I'm okay too. I should be happy ^____^;;; Mwhahaha, one of my best friends could be visiting me over break. *is estastic* woo!...*ahem* back to the sadness.

Life is hard. A known fact, just like "Life isn't fair". Which in fact...is an understatement. It just seems like no matter how hard you try, nothing is ever right. It might be close but for me it seem so far away from being something I wanted. Heh, wanted. Our wants are suppose to come second-hand. But what if our wants are our needs. Then do are needs come second-hand too? It feels like that. I always wondered why the best of people suffer the most. Why is that eh? How come such beautiful people feel the wrath of the world? The fires of Hell, yet they always seem to deserve so much more. That's why life isn't fair. Nothing ever is. I guess that's just how it works. You could be perfect but feel the pain of the world. Nothing is ever right, so get over it eh? Hard to get over when you try so hard. You think, "There are people living on roofs and starving in the world. And here I am falling apart when I have food to eat." Maybe that's because we'd rather starve than go through some of the things we go through. People don't seem to understand that no one is the same, so nor is what they need and want. A friend once told me that you could give two different people the same punishment. But if that punishment doesn't affect that one person it's useless. Why should I feel bad for having food to eat? Well I don't. I feel blessed, not bad. But that doesn't stop me from feeling like I'm falling apart in a friend's pair of hands. Just once I wish the world would stop spinning and lie still. For a second, so that I may take a deep breath and realize it could be worse even when it feels like I'm sitting in a puddle blood and I'm six feet under..